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Who writes this Hoo Haa anyway?

on January 4, 2013

That was the title I thought of this morning as I lie in bed, thinking about the day I had yesterday.  “Best Laid Plans” was a post I made a few weeks ago.  How plans can go awry, but that’s life and you have to just deal with it and adjust to change.  But, sometimes when your best laid plans go awry, it just sucks.  And yesterday sucked for me.

My employee of 14 years, my right hand, my framer, my sports person, my sale person, my Jack of All Trades person, my friend, my ‘sister’ gave me her notice yesterday.    After 13 years of 3 of us working in the office, one of us will be gone at the end of the month.  I feel sad.  I feel bereft.  I feel overwhelmed.   I feel lost.   Sure, I can hire someone new.   And it’s our slow season, so I have time.   Yes, I can train someone to answer the phones, help clients, etc., but it will take forever to teach them all of the nuances, policies, ‘what ifs’, we have in our business.   A new person won’t know the clients.   A new person won’t know the history.  A new person won’t be able to remember the name of someone when we describe a session, client, situation.  It just won’t be the same.

But, as Life Happens, I woke up, as I usually do, pretty happy.   Then I Remembered.   I feel this overwhelming loss.   And then I read the paper.   A father of 3, age 45, died suddenly after being diagnosed with cancer just a few weeks ago.   I’m 45.  Then I realized I can mope and whine all I want, but I really don’t have anything to mope and whine about, compared to this family.   I’m alive, I’m healthy, my family is healthy, and I have to be grateful and quit bemoaning the changes happening.   Sure, it will suck.  And it will be crazy busy for the 2 of us left behind.  And it will not be the same.   But, what will be will be.  And there’s nothing I can do about it.   Best Laid plans…

Sometimes I hate it when I’m right.

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