punkinhead

One of my greatest sadnesses is life is that I never met two of my older siblings.   David and Starr.   Both were born and passed long before I was even thought of – but I’ve often wondered what my life would have been like if I had those two as a guiding force.   I was lucky enough to have an older sister, though, and I’m so thankful.   I have 5 siblings in total – so I wasn’t lacking for sisters or brothers, but I still miss David and Starr.   Even though I never knew life with them.   I wonder what they would be like, funny like my older sister or artsy like my younger?   Would he be tall like my uncle and have my Grandpa’s great jaw line?  Or would she be petite like my mom and laugh just like her, too?

I wonder.
One of my favorite movies of all time is “Secrets and Lies”.  It’s a British film (I’m a huge fan of British cinema and tv – I long to be Dame Maggie Smith someday).  In this great work (well, I think it’s great), an infertile couple is having a conversation about someone never knowing their father, and the wife says “You can’t miss what you never had”, but as soon as she says it, she realizes, as her husband does, that yes, you can.  They miss what they never had.  And I do, too.

So, to that point, one of my most popular hats is the one shown to the right – with a pom pom added.  I’ve sold more of these than any other (without the pom) but I now have a photo of it with a pom for added variety.  I’ve also done it in the gnome style, below.   On etsy – and previously on here somewhere, it’s listed as the “Seaside”.   I wasn’t feeling particularly imaginative that day (it’s the name of the yarn color!)   But now I think it should be named “David” in honor of the coolest older brother anyone could ever have had, as I’m sure he would have been.